This weekend I have had a date with the ex friend with benefits (see An update of Men & Men). We went watching the new Harry Potter film. The film was good but left a lot of questions unanswered. It also seemed to jump from scene to scene with no real flow to it.

As an end to the date came to an end a kiss was expected. It was nice but very werid, like a ball of weridness. It’s hard to know were the boundaries are and if indeed I want to date this person?

I guess time will tell.

Blog soon,

Antony

I don’t really know much about astrology, apart from the fact that I’m a Taurus. So I thought I’d research Taurus as a Star Sign and see if it really applies to me.

SPIRITUAL GOAL : in each incarnation the true goal of taurus is to find their soul mate.
(from: http://www.paralumun.com/taurus.htm, Accessed online: 12th July 09)

In honesty I do want to find Mr. Right. Is that the same as a soul mate? But at the same time it is not my only goal in life. There’s lots of things I want to learn and experience. There’s also lots of important people in my life (besides Mr. Right), my friends and my family.

PERSONALITY :
POSITIVE : conservative, dependable, calm and loving.
NEGATIVE : stubborn, and be warned – never betray a taurus!
(from: http://www.paralumun.com/taurus.htm, Accessed online: 12th July 09)

Conservative, I’m not sure if that’s positive or not? Ha. Ha. Yes I am dependable, calm (well sometimes) and loving. However I couldn’t help but think that this missed out some other of my other personality traits. Where’s my creativity, sense of humour and many other personality traits I value in myself?

Negatively I am very stubborn. But I have learned to recognise when I’m being stubborn and given time I’ll even come back and appologise for my stubborness. I’m not quite sure what it meant by: and be warned – never betray a taurus!

SECRET TAURUS : takes the long term view.
(from: http://www.paralumun.com/taurus.htm, Accessed online: 12th July 09)

I don’t know why that is so called “secret”? But yeah, I do take a long term view of things.

TAURUS AT HOME : enjoys comfort and luxury
(from: http://www.paralumun.com/taurus.htm, Accessed online: 12th July 09)

Very true. I love my new home and it is comfortable and luxiourious.

WORK : hard worker, prepared to work long hours,
(from: http://www.paralumun.com/taurus.htm, Accessed online: 12th July 09)

I think I am a hard worker and at times do work long hours. I think sometimes I work a too many hours I am trying to cut down to keep my Work & Life in balance.

The website goes on to say:

LOVE : lucky is the starsign that finds a taurus partner, but be warned – a taurus will never forgive a betrayal.
FRIENDS : will expect absolute loyalty.
INTERESTS : painting, horse riding and collecting things.
HEALTH : watch your kidneys and thyroid.
(from: http://www.paralumun.com/taurus.htm, Accessed online: 12th July 09)

Ha ha none of which seem to apply at all to me. So my conclusion is that although star signs can give you an idea of someones make up, it is not exhausive and not always completely correct.

We are all individuals and I for one like to be treated like an individual not a star sign.

Blog soon,

Antony

I filled in an online quiz on Facebook. Here’s what it said:

They are born between 21st April – 21st May

Even though you’ve been told more than once that fairytales don’t exist, you just won’t let it go: you’re a big romantic and you carry on waiting for them. A smile, a bunch of flowers, a candle-lit dinner, a sensual kiss under a starry sky… some would say it’s an old-fashioned view but you love it! You fall in love easily but you’re a natural worrier and are always afraid of being abandoned. You have a continual need to be reassured in your relationships, which can sometimes be tiresome for your partners. This easy-going, affectionate person reassures you. You like snuggling up in their arms.

They are of a faithful nature, and by their side, you will no longer be afraid of being abandoned. They help you to express your emotions and to liberate yourself from your fears. Before meeting them, you feel like a little boy but they enable you to gain confidence…

This sounds like me in some areas, but it’s just a bit of fun!

Antony

I had the weirdest dream recently. I dreamt that the ceiling was cracking and then the walls. It was in my new apartment (see The Move).

I have previously had a dream about the walls in my new place being scratched.

I have had repeated nightmares and not been sleeping well.

What do you think it all means?

Antony

(Any dream interpretations are highly appreciated.)

Recently I posted about the Men in my life right now (see Men). Well everyone the plot thickens, so here’s a quick update:

1. The date? – He canceled as was unwell. He did sound ill when he rang me to be honest and I didn’t want to particularly catch what ever it was he had. However he’s been quiet on the text. I have even texted him asking him if he would like to rearrange our brunch date. No response. Guess he has lost his bottle or his interest in me or both.

2. The friendly ex – I have had to reinforce my I-just-want-friendship feelings to him recently. He is going a way on Hols soon, I hope he has a really good time.

3. David – I guess my recent blog post entitled Control didn’t help in terms of him wanting to talk to me. He’s still not answering my calls. It’s worse than before as he doesn’t just let his phone ring off he actually presses the ignore button after which the automated womans voice says “The user is busy. Please try again later.” Don’t you just hate that?

4. A friend with benefits – A new comer on the man front. He is an old friend who used to be a friend with benefits (I think that clearly explains it?) from well before I met David. I always wanted to date him and perhaps if dating worked out start a proper relationship. But he didn’t. He’s apparently seen my status on Facebook and decided to get in touch. I have arranged a meal with him on a date next week, so I’ll keep you informed.

In other news – I am not at all well. I have not slept well and when I have I have disturbing nightmares, I’m feeling tired all the time, by blood sugars are messed up and I’m sure I’ve got some infection or other. My nose is like a tap and I have a terrible cough, sore throat – basically I’m falling to pieces.

Blog when feeling better,

Antony