It was your birthday yesterday. I always remember your birthday and the anniversary of your far too premature death. But some thing rather unusual happened to me yesterday. I felt the raw pain of grief in my heart at you not being physically there and had to stop to have a good cry. After my good cry, I lit a candle and wished you a Happy Birthday.
I have no idea why this particular birthday of yours brought such intense feelings of grief and loss. Perhaps I was more sensitive than normal due to lack of sleep. I’ve haven’t been sleeping well due to the constant pain from my nose.
At the weekend your family and friends are going for the annual meal to celebrate your birthday. This one will be a bit tougher than it normally is. But that’s okay. As much as I feel sadness and grief at your loss, I also smile and laugh remembering the good times together.
Big hugs,
Antony
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