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Out of Ink

By Friends & Family, Love & RelationshipsOne Comment

During the day before we went watching District 9 (see District 9 Film Review). GJ and I had gone shopping for a new printer he needed. At the till he was asked: “Would you like to buy any ink cartridges?” To which I answered:
“No, it comes with them.”
(Obiously thinking that he could get the cartidges cheaper than the £18 they were in the shop, trying to save him money!)
“They are only starter ones. They only do about 50 pages.”
“We’ll be fine.” I answered for him again.
(Goddess, I’m quite very bad at that at times, when I think I’m right!)

So I had grand plans the other night: Jaquizi bath, a good meal and chill. Then GJ texted me, stating his printer had run out of ink! I felt really bad, so offered to pick him up and take him back to mine to complete the printing for him. He kept saying it wasn’t my fault but I felt guilty. He needed the work the following morning and it was too late for him to go anywhere and buy any.

I scoffed a quick tea down and picked him up. It was lovely to see him. I don’t quite know why, but I have a lot of positive regard for him. We have previously been out (see An update on men and Men, he was called the friendly ex in these posts). I guess I still have some feelings for him, especially after our recent conversation (see District 9 Film Review).

My love life seems to be getting more and more confusing and more and more complicated. Yet, I have had the honest conversation about staying friends with them both. What’s going on?

Blog soon (hopefully less confused),

Antony

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Saturday 19 September 2009

Tastilious Food with a BUT…

By Friends & Family, Love & RelationshipsOne Comment

JB came round the other night and cooked me an absoluately delious, tastilious meal. We had Chicken, Potatoes, Veg, nicely covered with gravey. The meal was great as was the conversation. After the meal we sat on the couch with a brew chatting, he put his hand on my leg. I felt uncomfortable, but tried not to show it.

We had a good time reading to one another off the internet and exchanging views on a variety of topics. (You know what I’m like, I’ll share my views to anyone that’ll listen!)

He left late, but before he departed he leaned in to kiss me. I responded by leaning it towards his cheek, but he moved his lips to mine. Another uncomfortable moment. I can not explain where this uncomfortableness came from, all I know is that’s how I felt.

Sigh. I know I am lucky to have the attention of a man especially one that’s good looking, has a good dress sense and can hold a conversation.

But, I dunno. You can’t help how you feel can you? If only we could control our feelings.

What makes it worse is that he’s been texting me loads and quite some future orintated stuff. As if we were a couple. Something boy friends would text to one another. I don’t feel we are that close. Sigh. I have text him back telling to slow down, but as Mike commented on Cards on the table I do feel pressured. I’ve told him this too.

What to do? I guess, let it flow for a while.

Write soon,

Antony x

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Sunday 13 September 2009

District 9 Film Review

By Friends & Family, Reviews, TV, Online Streaming & FilmsNo Comments

GJ and I went watching District 9 at the weekend. Before going we looked at the reviews. It’s the story of a mother ship stopping over Johannesburg, South Africa. After being unable to communicate with the ship they decide to board it and find some rather malnurished aliens (that kindof look like giant insects). They fly them down to a protected area on the surface and it quickly becomes a lawless slum.

Wikus van de Merwe is head of MNU (Multinational United) is incharge of relocating the aliens from the orignal surface site to another consentration camp looking site. But then he gets infected with alien DNA – required to work alien technology (such as the alien weapons). He starts to become what he hates a shrimp (negative term used by humans to describe the aliens). The special effects throughout the film are fantastic.

Wikus goes on the run and meets Christopher (an alien) who says he can change him back human if he can get to the mother ship. It becomes werid (but good) sci fi heartwarming story that makes you feel for Christopher, his rather cute looking son and the rest of the aliens wanting to go home.

I would give it 3 stars out of 5. Although it had a good story line, fantastic effects, it was some what unmemoriable. I wouldn’t be rushing to buy it on DVD.

Afterwards GJ came to mine for a brew. We had an intense conversation about emotions. What is it with men at the moment? Are they trying to completely confuse both my heart and mind?

Write soon,

Antony

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Thursday 10 September 2009

Cards on the table

By Friends & Family, Love & Relationships3 Comments

The other night the ex friend with benefits came round for a brew. I’m not sure I like the term ex friend with benefits for him anymore, so from now on he shall be known as JB.

The history between us is that I wanted at a relationship and all he could offer was benefits (which was nice, but not completely fulfiling). I got with my most recent expartner and then when I became single he got back intouch wanting to date. We went on a date (see Harry Potter and Weirdness) which was weird. I had an honest conversation with him about staying simply friends.

Last time he came round I gave him a tarrot reading using some gay tarrot cards. I saw he was going to grow and develop work wise and move home (which was all good for him as was part of his grand plan). Then I saw a man for him. The man had Earth energy (meaning he would be grounded, sensible, solid and stable). This would suit JB as he has a very airy energy (meaning he is very logical, methological, processes and systems based, he also had a creative side – when he chooses to utilise it).

Somehow I ended up lay on his chest with him talking about his life, his feelings and how they have changed over the years. He then said: “Cards on the table. I like you. I am sortof holding on hoping you’ll change your mind about us. I don’t want to pressure you…”

In honesty I don’t know how I feel about him. I don’t want to influence him or his potential future. But how can you have any social interaction without influencing someone? Is that not what a social interaction is?

I still have some hurt about him orignally not wanting a relationship. I know I shouldn’t and I should let it go – but heck recognising how you feel is the first step to dealing with the feelings. I think I also am worried that if we tried it, and I invested emotions, what happens when this earthy man comes in to his life?

I did enjoy our evening. There was something about us both being honest about our thoughts and feelings that was very comfortable (I could have stayed up chatting with me lay on his chest all night) and kindof a massive turn on.

He wants to come round and make tea at mine. I guess I’m one never to turn down a free meal, but hopefully I’ll be less confused about the whole complicated situation by the time I see him.

Take care,

Antony x

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Monday 7 September 2009
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