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Anger & Depression – My Current Stages of Grief

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Loss leads to a grieving process. I feel like my vasculitis diagnosis and accompanying symptoms have led to a loss of a quality of life, as well as a shorter life expectancy than I had expected. So I’m currently grieving.

I’ve done the denial and shock stages of grief, but am currently struggling with the anger and depression stages.

Anger is a weird one. I’m not angry at a person or God, but I’m angry with the whole way this universe works. It feels unfair and even though I know logically that life isn’t always fair, I’m still angry about it. Anger isn’t something I experience often and it is one of those feelings that for me is uncomfortable. I’m rarely ever angry so my resilence to tolerating this emotion is quite low, as are my coping strategies for dealing with it.

Depression on the other hand is bunch of feelings that I’m far too familiar with due to having bipolar. Hoplessness, a lack of joy, physical/mental exhaustion, I could go on, but I won’t.

These feelings of anger and depression are a normal part of the grieving process. I know that. But it doesn’t make them any easier to deal with. I’m struggling to cope, so I’ve referred myself for some counselling. I know there’s really no solution to these feelings, they are not a problem or a puzzle to be solved, they have to be experienced, in order to move on to the acceptance stage.

Right now I’m focusing on being patient and kind to everyone – including myself, so that I don’t inflict any harm on anyone because of how I am feeling.

I am acutely aware that my last few blog posts haven’t been positive. But I suppose that’s to be expected when you’re grieving.

Write soon,

Antony

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Don’t Buy MSI

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Don’t buy MSI laptops. You have been warned. I’ve had two in 18 months, the first a gaming laptop and the second a producitivty laptop that have both broken after really sort periods of use.

MSI laptops used to be known for their quality and come with a price tag that reflects this.

My first laptop was a secondhand MSI gaming laptop that keys on the keyboard stopped working after only around 3 months of use. Okay – I thought – I could vouch for anything the previous owner had done to it.

So I bought a brand new productivity laptop from MSI. First the camera broke, then a speaker, then the mircophone. I ended up having to replace this laptop after about 12 months of use.

I have now switched brands to acer and bought the Acer Nitro 5 with these specs.

Write soon,

Antony

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Are you a book review Blogger? Request a copy of any of 5 books & I’ll send you a FREE PDF review copy

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Are you a book review Blogger?

If so, you could get a FREE PDF review copy of any, some or all my books to read and review on your blog. Here is a summary of each of my five books:

Here are all of my books:

Ways The Human Body Can Go Wrong – overs every system of the body, what can go wrong when the body malfunctions or fails, symptoms (including why these happen) and cures/treatments available.

My Royal Navy Friend – My dear friend Roy decided to follow in his family’s footsteps and enlist in the Royal Navy. I wanted to maintain our friendship, to continue to support Roy, to make him laugh and to entertain him. So I came up with the idea of sending him a weekly email on random topics.

The Alcohol Therapy Workbook – This workbook has been designed for anyone that is struggling with alcohol or has struggled with alcohol in the past. It is written in a Motivational Interviewing style, one of the key therapies used to support people with alcohol issues. It has been designed using a trauma-informed approach and is strength–based.

SpellCast – Folk Magic for the 21st Century (co-authored with Luna Hare) – SpellCast is a comprehensive compendium of spells, oils, charms and talismans. It is purely a book about magic, folk magic for the 21st century. The spells are ones that are tried and tested, with some that will stand the test of time.

Mental Health Wisdom – Developing Understanding & Empathy – This book contains everything that you need to know about mental health and mental illness.

For a free review copy please email me here.

Write soon,

Antony

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Let’s Talk Crystal Grids

By Amazon, Paganism, ThinkingNo Comments

Let’s talk crystal grids. Recently, they have become all the range. But they’re an old, if not an ancient concept. Judy Hall (2009) was writing about these before they were widely popular, in her book The Crystal Bible Volume 2.

A Crystal Grid.

Gridding is the art of placing stones to create an energetic net to protect and energise the space.

The Crystal Bible Volume 2 by Judy Hall (2009).

I love Judy Hall. But she was thinking specifically about a physical space. Crystals can also be arranged in a pattern to amplify intention. One of the most common ways to do this is geometrically and that’s exactly what a crystal grid allows.

My crystal grid (above) has at its centre Aqua Aura Quartz associated with abundance. Surrounding it is a cirtrine point (in this case associated with money), two pieces of adventurine (also money), a carnelian (success), an amethyst (associated with the spiritual plane) and a quartz (good for any purpose). The intention of this crystal grid is to bring in sales of my latest book Ways The Human Body Can Go Wrong. I’ve also asked some of my ancestors for help with this.

To learn more about the Magical Properties of Crystals see my page. I’ll let you know how it goes.

Best Wishes,

Antony

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