But, is that what Christmas is about? Coming together to unwrap glossy, bright paper to reveal the hidden treasure. Please don’t misunderstand me, I appreciate all of the presents I’ve received. It’s just that by the time the presents have been unwrapped; the dinner ate; a doctor who special is watched, it’s all over. Without any real, significant time spent with our loved ones (family, friends and lovers). We haven’t asked them how their year has been, sitting down to listen and truly hear.

So with this in mind, I am starting a new tradition next year. I want an hour round a table or near a warm fire to talk to one another. I want to feel close to my loved ones at this time, not waste a really good opportunity talking superficially about what presents we got. Because, too me, people count more than stuff.

With this said though, I’d still like some things to unwrap. Let’s just not let the topic of conversation all day be about that book/jumper/DVD/computer game/etc. unwrapped.

Oh and just too add a bit of gossip – if you don’t mind? I didn’t think so. My brother announced his girl friend is pregnant, so I’m going to be an Uncle – technically again. I will get round to writing up the post about my long lost brother and his kids. Secretly I always wished to be an uncle, I guess the moral of this story is: be careful what you wish for.

Take care,

Antony

E said that he couldn’t commit to any sort of relationship right now because of stuff (I have more details than just “Stuff” but that’s his private info that I’d never publish). A few more messages where exchanged as I was really confused at one point. I managed to establish that he likes me and he wants to keep in contact. I think perhaps as well as the stuff going on there’s fear?

Fear of being hurt, the safer option to avoid/run away from anything that could hurt you. I geninually think that he likes me as much as I like him. So I’ve left it open, I’ve basically said: I still like you. I want to continue to get to know you. I am happy to message/speak on the telephone but I’d also like at some point to see you in person again.

Any advice? It’s always welcome and listened too.

A little-gutted Antony

Just wanted to remind you all that if your planning to purchase off Amazon on pay day you can use this Amazon link. Anything you buy will give me some commision and make no difference to your purchase price.

I managed to make in July 08 – July 09 about £3. Hardly a fortune, lol. My aim is to raise £35 to fund the site for a year.

You can also use the widgets on some blog posts that look like this:

Or use the Amazon Search Box on the right hand side of this blog.

Hugs,

Antony x

A few months ago I posted about Things I wan’t, but can’t afford, so here’s an update on the Wishlist.

1. iPhone – This is still a want! I am aware of it’s limitations (see phones) but it has some very nifty features too. I plan to upgrade to one shortly when my contract comes up for renewal.
Got? NO

2. Alan Carr – Look Who it Is! – I bought this as a gift to myself before Christmas. I have read it from cover to cover. A worth while read.
Got? YES

New Item:
2. Kylie Live ‘X’ 2008 – A DVD of Kylie’s tour I was lucky to see at the MEN (see Thanks to the attractive stranger & Photos – Kylie X2008)

3. Dawn French – Dear Fatty – Mum got it me for Christmas, in the process of reading at present.
Got? YES

New Item:
3. French and Saunders – Still Alive DVD The DVD of French and Saunders last tour, again which I was lucky enough to see it and have the tour from 2000, so I need this to add to my collection.

4. A Robot Hover – To escape the domesticated task I had this on my orignal list. However as I currently house-share, I couldn’t justify buying it for one room. So it is still on the list for if/when I move.
Got? NO

5. Silverwind – Magic for lovers – A book David and I looked at whilst shopping one day. I still fancy it as a easy read.
Got? NO

6. John Barrowman – Another Side (CD) – Downloaded this. He has a fantastic voice, I’m a big fan!
Got? YES

New Item:
Nintendo Wii Console – These looks like good fun and seen as this is a wish list, I’d love one of these!

7. Robbie Williams – Live At The Albert DVD – I once saw this at a friend of mines apartment, still want it. He is fantastic in it and soo camp in parts.
Got? NO

8. Bruce – How to Create a Magical Home – It is a beautiful book I am currently reading. Would highly recommend to anyone who loves their home and is a pagan.
Got? YES

New Item:
8. The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor DVD – This had many bad reviews. But David and I watched it and I really enjoyed it. Defo, one I want to add to my DVD collection some day.

9. Western Digital My Book 1TB – I still need one of these for my increasly cluttered computer. Bless it.
Got? NO

10. Ice CreamMaker – Nobody bought my justification for wanting this. I quote (from my post Things I wan’t, but can’t afford):

My justification for this being on the list is that, if I bought it I could make healthy ice cream (yeah right! ha ha.).

I suppose I would be able to make ice cream using sweetner rather than sugar. Now wouldn’t I be a healthy diabetic? It would be diabetic ice cream (that doesn’t have a laxitive effect).

Got? NO

11. The Wizard of Oz DVD Still need to purchase this before I can call myself a gay man (reminds me of that Catherine Tate line: “He’s a gay man now da”).
Got? NO

12. Will and Grace: Complete Series 5 DVD Boxset – My older brother usually buys me this for Christmas. But this year he bought me an Science Museum Retro Space Hopper and Science Museum – ATM Bank which are even better.
Got? NO

Aditions:
13. John Barrowman – Anything Goes (Auto Biography) – Continuing my love for John.
Got? NO

14. John Barrowman – Music Music Music (CD) – His latest CD.
Got? NO

So there it is, your update! It’s nice to make a list of material things you want and tick them off as you get them.

What do you have on your Things you want, but can’t afford list? Leave comments below.

Write soon,

Antony

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I have been having a really relaxed week off so far. The dreaded styes (see A mad week!) I have been given anti biotics for but also diagnosed that I have a small cyst in one of them. I shall be seeing a specialist about them shortley.

But back to all things beautiful… I have also purchased this beautiful stone oil burner from Shared Earth. I have had to put a full size image here to show it’s true beauty:

(It’s also the pagan symbol representing the Tripple Goddess)

An Update on the David Situation
We where lucky enough to see each other last night. We have discussed somethings, but are still unclear on the future. We shall hopefully spend some more time together at the weekend.

Site Updates
I have added some new past Projects:
* O’s and X’s Visual Basics
* Paper, Rock & Sissors Visual Basics

I have also added a mailing list feature, so that you can recieve an email everytime the site is updated:

Take Care,

Antony